sleeves

Wow, I haven’t blogged in a good while I have been especially busy lately or at least that’s the excuse i’m going to stick with, ha ha. My son who is on kidney dialysis has been keeping my attention elsewhere and his medical caregivers have been giving me semi-fits. I always knew even when i was a teenager that I would probably have a special needs child and so I wasn’t too surprised when he was born lacking sufficient kidney function and nearly died.
However a woman several years back asked me one day how I was enjoying my kid despite all of his appointments and meds etc. etc..,and you know it got me to thinking about how sometimes when theese curveballs come at you in life you sometimes get lost in the details and miss the big picture and I still think about that even now.
so…I sometimes struggle with focusing on big pictures because I tend to be detail focus but I think I’m learning to be more big pic focus esp. since some of the medical profession tends to always be wanting to keep you there also, when they make appts. for you and make judgement calls on your childs behalf and do other things that make you seem like a number to be kept in line, they work against the process.
Well I could spend some times going off on how my childs docs have been over the years but that’s for another day until then I think I will go and focus on relaxing until that dreary. long drive to the hospital rears it’s ugly head tommorrow.