Dec 30 2008
I’ve attempted to write twice now but either had to stop abruptly because my viao is acting up or some other lame reason but anyhow i’m giving it another go. I love love love the holiday of Christmas it is by far my fave holiday ever!! I’m a kid at heart so the bright twinkling lights and sugared ornaments and bright colors really mesmerize me!! I like to sleep in the same room with my tree I feel as if i’m waiting for Santa or some wonderful surprise to arrive soon. I must admit I was watching the movie Elf with Will Ferrell is one of my favorite actors/commedians and I found myself feeling dissappointed that I now know that Santa isn’t real, it’s not that I don’t like being an adult or even reality, I just don’t want the majic(I like the j instead of the g) to end. The majic of expectancy which to me translates into one word..hope. I feel we have more longing(s) during the holiday, we feel it’s ok to believe in something again and if we do we dont’ have to feel ashamed because we have been given permission somehow so we breathe a little and dance a little more sing a little longer and love a little harder because we have something that is good out there waiting on us and others so we feel we can make it one more day, week or at least 11 more months. Jesus for me takes the place of Santa and by no means do I playdown the sacrifice of our savior he is and was by far way more awesome than Santas myth or any being living or dead or even imagined. but the little child in me that used to stay up late and wait to hear reindeer can now realize that oneday I may look up and find my heavenly father coming on the clouds and if not in my lifetime and that were’nt enough to look forward to, everyday I have the promise of having a friend nearby who is on call 24/7, knows every hair on my head and who offers the same hope to everyone else and that to me is that sparkle and shine and beauty that cause me to marvel the other 364 days a year because I know hes’ not boring and life won’t stay that way all the time either and something interesting is around the corner.
